• Appreciation,  Depression,  General,  Happiness,  Law of Attraction

    This Was Then

    I laid on the edge of my bed like an infant, slightly quivering.  I could only feel my aching soul.  My pain began to seep out of my eyes.  I prayed to God to comfort me, to take me in His arms, to protect me, and to give me enough love that would change my life.  I knew I was gone. “It” had taken me from all those that loved me but I could not see.  I was blind to the outside world, I was numb to emotion.  I was in my own self-made prison. My pain was so great from “it” that death began to intrigue me.  Laying on…

  • Appreciation,  General,  Happiness,  Law of Attraction,  Relationships

    Sometimes We Fall

    Sometimes we fall. Sometimes we fall, get up, and fall again. Sometimes we don’t know why, we just know we fell and all that matters is getting back up. In the silence of our minds and the beating of our hearts, we know what we need to do to get back up. Facing ourselves and our truth can be difficult but it can also be powerful beyond measure. Our truth always lies within ~ anything that causes us to fall will always be found in our outer life. Letting go of your outer life is an essential step toward getting back up because it leaves but one thing ~ it…

  • Depression,  General

    Suicide Isn’t Just About Death

    Suicide is not just the act of killing one’s self.  Suicide is a long painful road filled with an endless feeling of such deep depression that it could be compared to that of slowly burning to death from the inside out.  Suicide is a choice not to be judged or criticized.  When a suicide story hits the news it is typically responded to in a negative way.  Many would say it is selfish, cowardly and an easy way out.  Some would even look at it as a sign of weakness, but I feel differently.  It takes a lot of strength and courage to make a choice of such magnitude ~…

  • Appreciation,  Depression,  General,  Happiness,  Relationships

    Put It In the Jar

    About 4 years ago I was helping a 5-year-old boy who was living a difficult life.  Not only was he was learning the negative beliefs and behaviors of his parents who were both addicts and verbally abusive, but he was living with a lot of anger. During a short period of time I became his friend, confidant, parent, punching bag, companion and teacher.  We went through many painful times together but we also had some very joyful times. I remembered something he and I did that helped to relieve his anger and the things that bothered him.  It started with an art class.  He and I would do one form of…

  • General,  Happiness,  Relationships

    Knowing Who You Are and Your Worth is Sometimes All You Need

    It is when we truly know who we are and know our worth that we can stand on our own.  We no longer need the people who cause us pain.  The hurtful words and actions of others go through us instead of knocking us down.  For me, they filter through my Inner Life and become purified into love.  Love toward the one who is still suffering.  The one’s who suffer are the ones who hurt us the most.  They say they love us and yet at the same time they aim their spears at us.  Spears filled with THEIR inner pain masked as hurtful words and actions.  When the pain…

  • General,  Happiness,  Relationships

    The Freedom of Forgiveness

    Forgiveness is not about the other person. Forgiveness is about freeing OURSELVES from the pain, anger, resentment and negativity we hold against someone else so WE can move forward.  I believe the reason it is so difficult to find forgiveness is because we believe saying “I forgive you” means the same as saying “what you did was okay”.  However, this is not the case.  Forgiveness is not about saying what was done was “OK”; it is about offering a deep understanding toward the other person.  If someone does something that necessitates forgiveness it is because their actions are coming from a place of pain, anger or discontent within themselves and has absolutely nothing…

  • Depression,  General,  Happiness,  Relationships

    Letting Go of Emotional Pain

    The mind creates emotional pain through the thoughts it thinks.  These thoughts come from your resistance to “what is”.  The more intense your pain, the more you are resisting the present moment.  Never will you find emotional pain in the present moment.  In reality the pain you are suffering is just an illusion created by the mind.  However, because many of us allow our minds to control our emotions we live with this unnecessary pain.  This is the same as living outside your-self; outside the present moment. You are and will always be the present moment, but you may not always be in tune with it.  The present moment is…