I Am Battle Worn

“I am half way gone, sleepless ~ I am battle worn.” – James Bay

What do you do when you are battle worn and feel as though you just cannot fight the fight anymore?  This is where I am (or was).  I have been battle worn on and off for the last year and a half in regards to a challenging situation.  I am exhausted of the inner psychological battle, of trying so hard, of living on the edge, of not knowing what is coming next, and yet knowing something will come.  Of being blind sided just when I feel like everything is going to work out.  I won’t hide the fact that I played a part in some of this on-going battle because I have.  I am only human and I do have my limits.  I can only take so much before it all comes to a head, and that it has.  However, on the positive side, and yes there is always a positive side, everything is now out in the open.  I know exactly where I stand and I know exactly what I need to do and how I need to do it.   

It all starts with letting go.  I have made the choice to surrender to my adversaries, even the one’s I created in my head.  And yes, there was a lot of stuff going on up in this head of mine.  None of which was good or healthy for that matter.  I have also withdrawn from the battle.  Through these choices with every precious breath I take, I have released the chaos, fear and worry this battle was creating in me.  I am now back in tune with my Inner Life!  

Not only am I completely filled with clarity, but my inner light is shining again!  I am going to be me and do the absolute best I can in every area of my life.  If that is not good enough, then so be it.  I don’t need to prove anything to anyone nor do I need approval from anyone but myself.  I also don’t need to change who I am or bend over backwards because I fear the upheaval someone could create in my life because of their insecurities and fears.

I am the one who is in control of my life, of how I feel, and how I react to every life situation and challenge.  I’ve allowed the negativity and drama of others affect every area of my life.  This has given them power and they have held that power over my head.  It all stops now.  I am taking my power back with grace and gratitude.  Why gratitude you ask ~ although this has been a very trying life experience it has allowed me the opportunity to grow, both personally and professionally.  It has opened my eyes to so much I needed to see, and that includes the truth within myself.  You see, battles are not just about who is coming after you, but why we are going after one another.

I had forgotten how powerful and relieving surrender can be.  It was like popping a balloon.  All that pressure was instantly released and I could breathe again!  I also came to realize in one of many moments of clarity how much I had stopped living and enjoying life.  I am not proud of the part I played, but the battle is over and a new chapter in my life has begun.  There is still work to be done and it will take some time.  I will continue to fight, but with love, not fear.

If true and lasting happiness is what you seek, seek first from within. Live, breathe and be your Inner Life. Quiet your mind, focus solely on the present moment and allow the power of your Inner Life guide you to where you want to be. – Cindy Ortiz

Live, Love & Breathe Life

Love & Light,

Cindy 

Taking Complete Responsibility for Your Life Changes Your Life

98-2There was a time when I would not take responsibility for the unwanted experiences overpowering my life.  It was very difficult for me to be honest with what was going on and where I was.  When it got to the point where I felt like everything was spinning out of control, I knew something had to change.  I knew the only way to change my life was to take control of it.  This meant taking complete responsibility for my life, not only for where I was, but for where I wanted to go.   There was no more blaming the world or others for my problems or mistakes, it was time for me to  own them!

Once I made the decision to take complete responsibility everything changed.  Even the mere thought of this powerful decision created a positive shift in my energy that I could feel instantaneously.  I was no longer living in resistance.  Without the resistance I was able to get back in tune with my Inner Life.  From that moment on, the only choices I made were those that would guide me in a positive direction toward the life I desired and toward true happiness.  

88-2Yes, there have been trying times along the way, but as long as I hold true to myself in taking complete responsibility for all areas of my life, life will continue to work for me instead of against me.  After all, we are the creators of our own reality.   

If true and lasting happiness is what you seek, seek first from within. Live, breathe and be your Inner Life. Quiet your mind, focus solely on the present moment and allow the power of your Inner Life guide you to where you want to be. – Cindy Ortiz

Live, Love & Breathe Life

Love & Light,

Cindy

Do You Have Inner Freedom

820Inner freedom is the illumination of all that we are.  It has an untouchable power and positive energy force that guides us throughout our personal journey.  It keeps us in tune with the greater part of who we truly are, with our Inner Life.

Inner freedom is being totally free from negativity, pain and unhappiness. You do not have inner freedom when you are twisted in knots or bound by your outer life afflictions, or if you are filled with any level of discomfort.

If you want inner freedom you have to let go of all the turbulence in your life.  It doesn’t matter if it’s in the past or in the present, you have to let it go or nothing will change.  If you open your heart and listen you will know what or who is keeping you from your inner freedom. If you want true and lasting peace, joy and happiness you must release yourself from all this inner turbulence and unrest.  Allow yourself to move through it, not build on it. 

Are Your Beliefs Creating Heartache and Unhappiness

beautiful landscape photographyOnce you reach the state of inner freedom, life will never be the same, and you will never go back.  Your energy and the light inside of you will take you places you never thought possible.  Where there is lack, there is now abundance.  Where there is pain, there is now peace.  Where there is sadness, there is now happiness. Where there is darkness, there is now light.  Where there is hate, there is now LOVE.  

NOW is the time to let go.  Imagine for a moment how it will feel to be rid of all that locks you in a negative state of being ~ just imagine ~ you will finally be FREE.

If true and lasting happiness is what you seek, seek first from within.  Live, breathe and be your Inner Life.  Quiet your mind, focus solely on the present moment and allow the power of your Inner Life guide you to where you want to be ….

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Live, Love & Breathe Life

Love & Light,

Cindy