• Appreciation,  Depression,  General,  Happiness,  Relationships

    It’s Good To Be Back

    Last year was by far the worst year of my life!  I was in a total fog, not able to get in touch with myself.  I knew I was here and yet I was gone.  I couldn’t get a grasp of what was going on in and around me.  I was in a downward tailspin desperately trying to hold on.  I just kept sinking.  I knew which way was up but I was afraid.  I was afraid of expressing my grief and heartache because I didn’t want to feel it anymore than what I already was.  I was afraid to express my unhappiness and disillusions.  I was even afraid to…

  • Depression,  General,  Happiness,  Relationships

    The Hole In My Heart

    The only thing I want is to be sad and cry whenever I feel like it.  I don’t want to hide it, put on a smile, and pretend everything is okay.  It hasn’t even been three months since I lost my sister.  This isn’t about her death, it’s about missing her – plain and simple.  It feels like there is a hole in my heart the size of the ocean and I am at the bottom trying to get to the top.  But I can’t get to the top because I don’t know which way to go.  There is nothing anyone can say that I don’t already know.  I know…