Someone recently said to me, very sternly I may add, as I was expressing feelings of guilt over a choice I made 9 years ago, “JUST OWN IT!”. She told me to own the fact that I not only did what was best for me, but I did what I had to do in order to save myself ~ end of story. And just like that the guilt was gone.
I don’t know why it took so many years, but the moment I heard those words something inside of me changed. I became free. Not only from the guilt I had been holding onto, but also from disappointment, shame and regret playing faintly in the background of my life. I couldn’t believe how easy it was ~ in an instant all those negative feelings were gone. I was overwhelmed with relief and a sense of stillness I have not felt in quite some time.
Although it was instantly clear, I didn’t realize I was holding onto a person who no longer existed. Perhaps I just needed to grow into who I am today before I could let her go. Perhaps I needed to come full circle with all of it, including myself. Regardless, owning my choice gave me the power to let go of the guilt. There was nothing left to fight.
Taking ownership of anything gives us control over it, which in turn gives us personal power. When we hold onto negative feelings such as guilt, shame, disappointment or regret, we give them power because to some degree they control us. They control how we feel and how we live our lives. They can also leave us feeling powerless because we cannot go back and change what caused these feelings.
Now, looking back, it was as though I was “renting” those negative feelings because I continued to pay for them on one level or another. I do believe, now that I can see the bigger picture, that NOT taking ownership of our choices and mistakes leaves us in limbo. If you do not fully embrace and own the things you have said and done, how will you ever be able to let them go and move forward. You will remain stuck in who you were instead of stepping into who you are becoming.
I have, over the last few weeks, gone back through my memory bank and taken ownership of all the things I’ve tried to bury. And do you know what I have been left with? I have been left with an undeniable feeling of peace and pureness. This new “ownership process” has completely cleansed my mind, my heart, my spirit and my body. I am more in tune with my Inner Life and I am living a more joyous life. I have a lot to be proud of but I couldn’t see those things as much as I could see what I did “wrong”. I have lived an amazing life even with all the chaos, challenges and struggles, but I am still smiling and shining brighter than I ever have!
Take some time my friends and think about your life. Are you truly happy? Are you living a joyous existence? Are you happy with yourself inside and out? Are you free and clear of the past or do you carry a bag full of regrets, mistakes, shame, guilt, disappointment? Do you want to be free and feel proud of who you are and where you are? Who cares how you came to be where you are ~ you are here now and you have the power to do, be and have everything you want! So I say to you, OWN IT! Make it yours! Love yourself for it and let it go! Be free my friends, be free!
If true and lasting happiness is what you seek, seek first from within. Live, breathe and be your Inner Life. Quiet your mind, focus solely on the present moment and allow the power of your Inner Life guide you to where you want to be. – Cindy Ortiz
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Love & Light,