It’s Good To Be Back

Last year was by far the worst year of my life!  I was in a total fog, not able to get in touch with myself.  I knew I was here and yet I was gone.  I couldn’t get a grasp of what was going on in and around me.  I was in a downward tailspin desperately trying to hold on.  I just kept sinking.  I knew which way was up but I was afraid.  I was afraid of expressing my grief and heartache because I didn’t want to feel it anymore than what I already was.  I was afraid to express my unhappiness and disillusions.  I was even afraid to reach out for help, support and guidance.  I felt so alone.  I even lost touch with my Inner Life and I lost my faith.  I was no longer taking a fearless leap of faith toward true happiness but instead I was falling with fear, sadness, and anger.  I was so angry at myself for allowing my feelings and emotions to get as far as they did.  

When it got to the point where I had enough of feeling this way, a miracle occurred.  I opened my eyes and allowed the truth.  I was able to see everything so clearly that it actually made me physically sick and yet at the same time I was filled with an overwhelming amount of relief and sense of peace.  I could actually breathe again. I took the next three months in stride, putting myself and my life back together, still swaying from time to time, but holding strong.  I took back control and did what I had to do in order to live the life I want and feel the way I should feel.  It didn’t have to be this way though.  Not because I knew better, but because I am in control of how I feel no matter what the circumstances.  I allowed too many things consume me and nearly eat me alive.  Instead of expressing, I crumbled.  

I can honestly say, it will never happen again.  My happiness, my state of mind, and my well-being are the most important things to me, as it should be.  If I am not good for myself, how am I supposed to be any good for anyone else.  As much as I suffered through the year, I now embrace it with great love and understanding.  It didn’t define me, but it did allow me to grow and to learn more about myself and others, some good, some not so good.  I am finally back to feeling like Cindy again and oh what a joyful feeling that is!  I sure did miss me! 

If true and lasting happiness is what you seek, seek first from within. Live, breathe and be your Inner Life. Quiet your mind, focus solely on the present moment and allow the power of your Inner Life guide you to where you want to be. – Cindy Ortiz

Live, Love & Breathe Life

Love & Light,

Cindy

Taking A Leap of Faith – From Fear to Happiness

SONY DSCI used to fear being happy.  I was afraid if I became truly happy something or someone would take that happiness away from me so I lived in unhappiness.  What I didn’t know at the time was that there was nothing to fear and that I was the one responsible for my own happiness.  No matter what was said or done to me, I always had the choice as to how I was going to let it affect me.  Unfortunately, I allowed too many things affect me in a very negative way.  I allowed everyone to have control over my happiness.  Basically, I was putting my entire life in the hands of others because I didn’t know any better and because I was afraid not to.  I didn’t know all I had to do was to live through my Inner Life, the greater part of who we are.  To live in the present moment and allow life to move with me, instead of against me, took all the fear away.

34When I had enough unhappiness, I took a huge leap of faith from fear to happiness.  I let go of everything I was holding onto, especially my fear, and I CHOSE happiness.  I chose to feel good now instead of waiting for something or someone to make me happy.  I chose to be here now, to live and focus as much as I could in the present moment, and to live first through my Inner Life.  I set aside all those outer life things that were causing my fear and unhappiness.  I relaxed, trusted myself, and embraced life.  For the first time in my life I felt like I was able to breathe.  I was free from the pain and fear.  I soon came to learn there was nothing to fear in myself or in my life.  And there is nothing to fear in yours either!

789Was it, or has it always been easy?  No, of course not, but it has been well worth it.  The times that were difficult were only difficult because I was putting up resistance to what was, out of fear.  I was trying to control what was happening instead of remaining in my relaxed state of being and allowing life to flow naturally, easily and effortlessly.  In time, it did get easier and to this day I still have my moments where I sway just a little towards fear, but the good thing is that I am so aware of how I feel and how I want to feel, that I never fall.

F – Faith

E – Energy

A – Adventurous

R – Resilience

15What is fear?  Fear is a word.  A word we have given much power to.  Fear is a belief.  A belief that something is so bad it causes us to be scared.  Think for a moment about how putting the word fear to a thing creates such negativity and fear within ourselves.  For example, many of us are afraid of snakes and spiders, but why?  Because we were taught they were something to fear.  What if we were taught that kittens were something to fear and snakes and spiders were cute and cuddly?  Ok, that may be stretching it a bit, but I think you get my point.  The things we tie fear to are only in our minds.  We all have the power and the ability to change what causes us fear and what doesn’t.

Frog 02What are you afraid of right now in your life?  Are you afraid of changing jobs, moving to a new town, ending your relationship, not losing weight, getting sick, losing a loved one?  Which fears are causing you the most unhappiness and what are you going to do about it?  Isn’t it time to take a leap of faith from fear to happiness?  To trust yourself, relax and embrace life.  Or would you rather live the rest of your life wondering what could have been, if only …..

If true and lasting happiness is what you seek, seek first from within.  Live, breathe and be your Inner Life.  Quiet your mind, focus solely on the present moment and allow the power of your Inner Life guide you to where you want to be …. 

Love & Light,

 

Cynthia K Ortiz, Inner Life Guidance Coach

Embracing the Unexpected

104Throughout our lives we are going to experience the unexpected.  We will welcome the things that bring us joy and happiness with open arms and we will resist the things that bring us sadness and heartache.  Both are natural reactions to what we want and what we don’t want.  

But….what if, instead of trying to resist that which you do not want, you embrace it wholeheartedly as if it were something you did want. What if you were to go with the flow of what life is giving you even if you cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel. Embrace this new life experience with trust, faith and love.  Know in your heart all is well and trust that the Universe (God, Source, True Self, etc.) is giving you exactly what you want.

106When the unexpected comes knocking on your door, you always have a choice.  You can allow it to swallow you whole or you can allow it to take you places you never thought possible.  Every unwanted experience is an opportunity for you to create a different life.  A life that will in fact bring you the highest joy possible.  If you look at this unexpected “thing” in a positive light; in a manner in which you feel it can be a benefit to you, it will lose its power over you and once that power is lost, your pain will begin to subside.

I know there will be times when things may be very difficult to handle; when your emotions run wild and you feel lost and confused.  During these challenging times, just take a step back and breathe for a while. If you are able to find appreciation for the changes this unexpected and unwanted experience has created for you, you will move from a place of sadness to a place of hope and happiness. Appreciation is the most powerful emotion/feeling you can experience aside from love. It has the power to create your life the way you truly desire it to be; the way you deserve for it to be.

Nothing happens in our lives that we did not attract or “ask for” on some level.  When things are not working out the way we want them to, we pray for something better.  How that something better comes along may not always be the way we imagined it, and it may cause some pain, but again, trust and have faith in the power that creates worlds.

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Now is the time to ask yourself how you want to feel through this experience.  Do you want to continue being in pain, feeling torn apart, angry or sad?  Or do you want to embrace it for what it is and continue to enjoy life the way life should be enjoyed?  YOU have the power to change anything at any moment so take some time and make peace with where you are; with where your life is, and then leave the past behind and focus on a more joyous and happy future!!!

Love & Light,

Cindy Ortiz

 

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