It’s Good To Be Back

Last year was by far the worst year of my life!  I was in a total fog, not able to get in touch with myself.  I knew I was here and yet I was gone.  I couldn’t get a grasp of what was going on in and around me.  I was in a downward tailspin desperately trying to hold on.  I just kept sinking.  I knew which way was up but I was afraid.  I was afraid of expressing my grief and heartache because I didn’t want to feel it anymore than what I already was.  I was afraid to express my unhappiness and disillusions.  I was even afraid to reach out for help, support and guidance.  I felt so alone.  I even lost touch with my Inner Life and I lost my faith.  I was no longer taking a fearless leap of faith toward true happiness but instead I was falling with fear, sadness, and anger.  I was so angry at myself for allowing my feelings and emotions to get as far as they did.  

When it got to the point where I had enough of feeling this way, a miracle occurred.  I opened my eyes and allowed the truth.  I was able to see everything so clearly that it actually made me physically sick and yet at the same time I was filled with an overwhelming amount of relief and sense of peace.  I could actually breathe again. I took the next three months in stride, putting myself and my life back together, still swaying from time to time, but holding strong.  I took back control and did what I had to do in order to live the life I want and feel the way I should feel.  It didn’t have to be this way though.  Not because I knew better, but because I am in control of how I feel no matter what the circumstances.  I allowed too many things consume me and nearly eat me alive.  Instead of expressing, I crumbled.  

I can honestly say, it will never happen again.  My happiness, my state of mind, and my well-being are the most important things to me, as it should be.  If I am not good for myself, how am I supposed to be any good for anyone else.  As much as I suffered through the year, I now embrace it with great love and understanding.  It didn’t define me, but it did allow me to grow and to learn more about myself and others, some good, some not so good.  I am finally back to feeling like Cindy again and oh what a joyful feeling that is!  I sure did miss me! 

If true and lasting happiness is what you seek, seek first from within. Live, breathe and be your Inner Life. Quiet your mind, focus solely on the present moment and allow the power of your Inner Life guide you to where you want to be. – Cindy Ortiz

Live, Love & Breathe Life

Love & Light,

Cindy

The True Way of Forgiveness

15Although I would prefer to live a life completely filled with joy, happiness and peace, we all know it is nearly impossible.  We all know there will be life experiences that hurt us, make us angry, take us to our knees, or leave us completely torn and breathless.  Some of the most difficult experiences come from our relationships and learning forgiveness.  Just recently, a very wonderful and wise man in my life reminded me of the true way of forgiveness.

When a life experience calls for forgiveness, more than likely we have made it quite clear what this person did to hurt US.  More than likely we spoke without love, compassion or understanding.  More than likely we reacted with anger, hostility and even feelings of hatred.  More than likely we didn’t give the other person a fighting chance.  More than likely we never thought about their pain or why they did what they did.  We just know they did US wrong and now we want to punish them and hurt them the way they hurt us.

Prayer 01Forgiving someone is not only vital to our own well-being, but it is also vital to the other persons well-being, sense of self, and ability to move forward.  When people do wrong, we should forgive them, comfort them, show them love, and guide them in a more positive direction.  We shouldn’t punish them or rub it in their face day in and day out.  This will only create negativity, resentment and more than likely it will destroy the relationship. 

Many will disagree, but there is nothing in this world that is not forgivable if one takes the time to come to a deep understanding of where the other persons wrong came from.  A negative action always comes from a place of fear or pain.  It never comes from a place of love, joy or happiness.  Sometimes our wrongs even come from self-sabotage because we can’t find the love within ourselves to make the right choices or decisions.  Many times we are so wrapped up in our fear, pain and negativity that we lose all hope.

There are some who believe that forgiveness is the same as saying what was done is acceptable, but it has nothing to do with what is acceptable and what isn’t.  It is about truly loving yourself and another enough to move through it with love, understanding and compassion.  Where you want it to go from there is completely up to you.  We all make mistakes and we all want to be forgiven so don’t treat those you love in any other way except the way you would want to be treated if it were you. 

70The true way of forgiveness is in fact through your Inner Life.  It is in fact about love, not punishment.  When it’s all said and done, just let it go.  There is absolutely no reason whatsoever to carry it with you, for if you do, your life will turn in an unwanted direction and you could very easily lose a relationship that really wasn’t worth losing.  Open your heart and allow yourself the beauty and freedom of the true way of forgiveness.

If true and lasting happiness is what you seek, seek first from within. Live, breathe and be your Inner Life. Quiet your mind, focus solely on the present moment and allow the power of your Inner Life guide you to where you want to be …

Love & Light,

Cindy Ortiz

Living Your Life Happily Ever After – You Are the Priority

43A part of living your life happily ever after means taking care of yourself first and making how you feel a priority.  This does not make you selfish, it makes you healthy and happy. 

I’ve been surprised over the years at the number of people who live their lives through what others want, need and expect from them, not to speak of what they think someone wants, needs or expects.  They feel an innate obligation to do for others in a way that ends up stealing their own happiness.  There is certainly nothing wrong with caring for and helping others out, but it has to be on your terms ~ on how it is going to make you feel at the time.  It has to come from your Inner Life, not from the expectations of your outer life.

The common response as to why people do this is because somewhere inside them they feel it is the “right” thing to do for whatever reason.  But I have to ask, who is it right for?  Is it right for you if it causes you to feel any type of negative emotion particularly resentment or anger?  Is it right for the other person when it creates a dependency on you and hinders their growth to take responsibility for their own happiness and well-being? 

38The feelings of it being the right thing to do, your responsibility or obligation all come from a place of fear.  Fear that if you don’t do what someone wants, needs or expects from you, something bad will happen to them.  However, you are not responsible for anyone else’s happiness or well-being.  If something “bad” happens it is purely because of what they are attracting into their lives which has nothing at all to do with you.

When we live through our Inner Life it produces genuine love, kindness and positive energy.  It is through this love, kindness and positive energy you will always know what is best for you.  There will never be doubt in the taking care of or guilt in the not taking care of another.  You will give and help lovingly because it comes from a place of love versus guilt, obligation or fear.

In reality, this is not about anyone but you.  It is only about taking care of yourself first and how you feel.  When you feel good you are in tune with your Inner Life.  When you are in tune with your Inner Life, life flows easily and effortlessly.  Meaning, life will sort itself out including those who do not truly appreciate your loving kindness and only feel as if you owe them something.

If true and lasting happiness is what you seek, seek first from within.  Live, breathe and be your Inner Life.  Quiet your mind, focus solely on the present moment, and allow the power of your Inner Life guide you to where you want to be……

Love & Light,

Cynthia K Ortiz, Inner Life Guidance Coach