It’s Good To Be Back

Last year was by far the worst year of my life!  I was in a total fog, not able to get in touch with myself.  I knew I was here and yet I was gone.  I couldn’t get a grasp of what was going on in and around me.  I was in a downward tailspin desperately trying to hold on.  I just kept sinking.  I knew which way was up but I was afraid.  I was afraid of expressing my grief and heartache because I didn’t want to feel it anymore than what I already was.  I was afraid to express my unhappiness and disillusions.  I was even afraid to reach out for help, support and guidance.  I felt so alone.  I even lost touch with my Inner Life and I lost my faith.  I was no longer taking a fearless leap of faith toward true happiness but instead I was falling with fear, sadness, and anger.  I was so angry at myself for allowing my feelings and emotions to get as far as they did.  

When it got to the point where I had enough of feeling this way, a miracle occurred.  I opened my eyes and allowed the truth.  I was able to see everything so clearly that it actually made me physically sick and yet at the same time I was filled with an overwhelming amount of relief and sense of peace.  I could actually breathe again. I took the next three months in stride, putting myself and my life back together, still swaying from time to time, but holding strong.  I took back control and did what I had to do in order to live the life I want and feel the way I should feel.  It didn’t have to be this way though.  Not because I knew better, but because I am in control of how I feel no matter what the circumstances.  I allowed too many things consume me and nearly eat me alive.  Instead of expressing, I crumbled.  

I can honestly say, it will never happen again.  My happiness, my state of mind, and my well-being are the most important things to me, as it should be.  If I am not good for myself, how am I supposed to be any good for anyone else.  As much as I suffered through the year, I now embrace it with great love and understanding.  It didn’t define me, but it did allow me to grow and to learn more about myself and others, some good, some not so good.  I am finally back to feeling like Cindy again and oh what a joyful feeling that is!  I sure did miss me! 

If true and lasting happiness is what you seek, seek first from within. Live, breathe and be your Inner Life. Quiet your mind, focus solely on the present moment and allow the power of your Inner Life guide you to where you want to be. – Cindy Ortiz

Live, Love & Breathe Life

Love & Light,

Cindy

Only You Know Why

86-1Sometimes we lose our way.  Sometimes we revert back to old negative patterns of behavior.  Why?  Only you know why.  At first you may not even realize it.  You may chalk it up to a bad day.  But before you know it, that bad day is now a bad month(s) or a bad year(s).  Then one day you wake up with that god awful feeling in the pit of your stomach.  You wake up seeing the truth ~ you have no clue who you are anymore.  You are destroying your life.  You lay there wondering how you got to where you are.  You wonder what happened to you.  You ask yourself, where did I go?  Where did I lose my way?  Where did I become so out of tune with my Inner Life that I allowed this to happen? Rest assured, you can change all of this.  All it takes is the will and determination to do so.

Taking Complete Responsibility for Your Life Changes Your Life

76-2Life may seem daunting to you right now, but let’s look at the bright side.  Yes, there is a bright side.  Through your awareness of where you are and where you want to be, you can now begin to build or re-build the life you so desire. There may be unwanted consequences along the way, but the most important thing for you to remember and focus on is where you want to be.  It doesn’t matter where anyone else is, this is completely about you.  Taking ownership of your life, your mistakes and/or your regrets will change everything, but you have to allow the change.  You have to want to change for your own personal well-being and happiness.  No one can do it for you.  Living in the past or holding onto what you once had will only hinder your growth, slow your progress forward, and keep you out of tune with your Inner Life.

Every Choice You Make Has An Outcome

27-2Regardless of where you are, be here now, be present in this time.  It is vital for this to be solely about you.  You have to be your #1 priority and you have to be honest with yourself.  It is time to stand strong and take the first step toward personal freedom.  Free yourself from all the negativity and pain.  Yes, I know you are hurting, but you can do this.  You know what you need to do.  You know where to go if you need help or guidance.  There is nothing to be afraid of.  True happiness, joy, peace, well-being, abundance and love are all waiting for you.  

If true and lasting happiness is what you seek, seek first from within. Live, breathe and be your Inner Life. Quiet your mind, focus solely on the present moment and allow the power of your Inner Life guide you to where you want to be. – Cindy Ortiz

Live, Love & Breathe Life

Love & Light,

Cindy

 

Every Choice You Make Has An Outcome

17Every choice we make ends up somewhere.  It doesn’t matter what it is, there is always an outcome.  You may or may not see it or feel it, but it is there.  Even the littlest of choices such as the type of toilet paper you buy will have an outcome.  You will end up with a happy tush or an unhappy tush depending on the type of toilet paper you chose to buy.  If you choose to turn left instead of right this could cause you the opportunity to see the sunset and what a beautiful outcome that would be!  The choice I made today to paint my fingernails has a positive outcome because it makes me feel good.  The choice to drink more water will have the outcome of more trips to the bathroom along with helping to flush out toxins.

Taking Complete Responsibility for Your Life Changes Your Life

38Some choices we make, and will make, change our lives completely.  The choice to drink and drive could land you in prison because you crossed the yellow line and killed an entire family.  The choice to use drugs could cause you to lose everything including yourself.  The choice to text and drive could cause you to miss the stop light and drive head on into a tree, losing your life.  The choice to eat junk food could cause high cholesterol and eventually cause a heart attack.  The choice to go swimming in an unsafe body of water could cause you to drown.  The choice to lie to and cheat on your partner could cause the end of your relationship.

652The choices we make are just as important and vital to our well-being as the thoughts we think and the food we put in our bodies.  There is certainly nothing wrong with taking a little extra time to think through your choices.  Think about every possible outcome, good or bad, and then choose wisely.  We all think from time to time that “it won’t happen to me” but it does happen.  It happens all the time to people of all walks of life. 

Today I choose only that which is for my greater good and for that which is in line with and in tune with my Inner Life.  Today I choose to make choices that will enhance my life and bring me more joy, abundance, peace, love and true happiness!

If true and lasting happiness is what you seek, seek first from within. Live, breathe and be your Inner Life. Quiet your mind, focus solely on the present moment and allow the power of your Inner Life guide you to where you want to be. – Cindy Ortiz

Live, Love & Breathe Life

Love & Light,

Cindy