Plant A New Seed and Begin Anew

There will be times when your life experiences make you feel nowhere near being happy.  When you feel as if the walls are caving in and there is nothing you can do to stop them.  At times like this you need to stop, take a long deep breath, and remember YOU are the one who has the power to change it all.  We live in a world that is governed by the natural laws of good, creation and attraction.  How you think and feel will create your reality, whether wanted or unwanted.

Too often we get swept away by the things going on in our outer lives.  We get caught up in the parts of our lives that do not bring us happiness or satisfaction.  We find ourselves constantly focusing on what is not going right instead of what is going right.  We are overtaken by stress, worry, and fear of the future.  Before we know it, we are completely out of tune with our Inner Life (God), the greater and more powerful part of who we truly are.  Most of us don’t even see it coming until one day we wake up and think, “how did I get here, how did I become so unhappy”.

 

You got to where you are because you have allowed your outer life control your Inner Life.  You have allowed yourself to get soaked with negativity and a negative perspective toward life.  Life does not give you want you do not want ~ you give you what you do not want.  I know this may be a hard pill to swallow; you know, taking personal responsibility, but trust me, I know what I am talking about.  I’ve lived in the deep dark hole of unhappiness and depression, but when enough was enough, I chose to plant a new seed and begin anew.  Something you are more than capable of doing for yourself.  You don’t need anyone’s permission nor do you need to go back and figure out how you got to where you are.  All you need is the desire for a truly happy life.

We were not born to live unhappy lives.  We were born to experience what life is like as a human being – a happy and joyous human being.  Unfortunately, as we grow through the ages, our minds get filled with fear, doubt, uncertainty, and even the negative thoughts and opinions of others.  It is when these negativities drive our feelings and emotions, we soon find ourselves dissatisfied with life and therefore unhappy.

It is my opinion the reason why so many people are stuck in unhappiness is because they do not believe their life can change.  They do not believe they can have what they want.  They do not believe they can get out of the rut they are in.  They do not truly, from the depths of their heart and soul, believe their Inner Life (God) can take them there.  I never believed it either until I let go of everything in my outer life and began living through my Inner Life.  Nothing else was working at the time, so why not try something new?  Why not choose happiness over unhappiness, what could it hurt?

Now, the question is, is it as easy as choosing to be happy no matter what?  Yes and No.  It depends on you and how much you want things to change.  For me, it was easy because I no longer had the desire to live the way I was living or feel the way I was feeling.  I made myself and how I felt my priority.  Nothing or no one came before these two things.  For others, it will take some time and practice, but it is certainly not impossible.  In fact, it is more possible than most things in life.  If you really want it, you will and can do it.  

So what do you do ~ you choose to be happy no matter what, and I mean no matter what.  You say “thank you” from the bottom of your heart (and mean it) to whatever comes your way.  You remind yourself a hundred times a day if necessary that only good will come of this ~ that the Universe has your back.  And last but not least, you let go of the past and the future, and live in the present moment, through your Inner Life.  Once you start to see evidence of your new-found take on life, and you will, you will never go back.  This isn’t to say life won’t have it’s challenges, because it will, but now you will be able to face them with positivity and power instead of negativity and dread.  

If true and lasting happiness is what you seek, seek first from within. Live, breathe and be your Inner Life. Quiet your mind, focus solely on the present moment and allow the power of your Inner Life guide you to where you want to be. – Cindy Ortiz

Live, Love & Breathe Life

Love & Light,

Cindy

 

I Am Battle Worn

“I am half way gone, sleepless ~ I am battle worn.” – James Bay

What do you do when you are battle worn and feel as though you just cannot fight the fight anymore?  This is where I am (or was).  I have been battle worn on and off for the last year and a half in regards to a challenging situation.  I am exhausted of the inner psychological battle, of trying so hard, of living on the edge, of not knowing what is coming next, and yet knowing something will come.  Of being blind sided just when I feel like everything is going to work out.  I won’t hide the fact that I played a part in some of this on-going battle because I have.  I am only human and I do have my limits.  I can only take so much before it all comes to a head, and that it has.  However, on the positive side, and yes there is always a positive side, everything is now out in the open.  I know exactly where I stand and I know exactly what I need to do and how I need to do it.   

It all starts with letting go.  I have made the choice to surrender to my adversaries, even the one’s I created in my head.  And yes, there was a lot of stuff going on up in this head of mine.  None of which was good or healthy for that matter.  I have also withdrawn from the battle.  Through these choices with every precious breath I take, I have released the chaos, fear and worry this battle was creating in me.  I am now back in tune with my Inner Life!  

Not only am I completely filled with clarity, but my inner light is shining again!  I am going to be me and do the absolute best I can in every area of my life.  If that is not good enough, then so be it.  I don’t need to prove anything to anyone nor do I need approval from anyone but myself.  I also don’t need to change who I am or bend over backwards because I fear the upheaval someone could create in my life because of their insecurities and fears.

I am the one who is in control of my life, of how I feel, and how I react to every life situation and challenge.  I’ve allowed the negativity and drama of others affect every area of my life.  This has given them power and they have held that power over my head.  It all stops now.  I am taking my power back with grace and gratitude.  Why gratitude you ask ~ although this has been a very trying life experience it has allowed me the opportunity to grow, both personally and professionally.  It has opened my eyes to so much I needed to see, and that includes the truth within myself.  You see, battles are not just about who is coming after you, but why we are going after one another.

I had forgotten how powerful and relieving surrender can be.  It was like popping a balloon.  All that pressure was instantly released and I could breathe again!  I also came to realize in one of many moments of clarity how much I had stopped living and enjoying life.  I am not proud of the part I played, but the battle is over and a new chapter in my life has begun.  There is still work to be done and it will take some time.  I will continue to fight, but with love, not fear.

If true and lasting happiness is what you seek, seek first from within. Live, breathe and be your Inner Life. Quiet your mind, focus solely on the present moment and allow the power of your Inner Life guide you to where you want to be. – Cindy Ortiz

Live, Love & Breathe Life

Love & Light,

Cindy 

It’s Good To Be Back

Last year was by far the worst year of my life!  I was in a total fog, not able to get in touch with myself.  I knew I was here and yet I was gone.  I couldn’t get a grasp of what was going on in and around me.  I was in a downward tailspin desperately trying to hold on.  I just kept sinking.  I knew which way was up but I was afraid.  I was afraid of expressing my grief and heartache because I didn’t want to feel it anymore than what I already was.  I was afraid to express my unhappiness and disillusions.  I was even afraid to reach out for help, support and guidance.  I felt so alone.  I even lost touch with my Inner Life and I lost my faith.  I was no longer taking a fearless leap of faith toward true happiness but instead I was falling with fear, sadness, and anger.  I was so angry at myself for allowing my feelings and emotions to get as far as they did.  

When it got to the point where I had enough of feeling this way, a miracle occurred.  I opened my eyes and allowed the truth.  I was able to see everything so clearly that it actually made me physically sick and yet at the same time I was filled with an overwhelming amount of relief and sense of peace.  I could actually breathe again. I took the next three months in stride, putting myself and my life back together, still swaying from time to time, but holding strong.  I took back control and did what I had to do in order to live the life I want and feel the way I should feel.  It didn’t have to be this way though.  Not because I knew better, but because I am in control of how I feel no matter what the circumstances.  I allowed too many things consume me and nearly eat me alive.  Instead of expressing, I crumbled.  

I can honestly say, it will never happen again.  My happiness, my state of mind, and my well-being are the most important things to me, as it should be.  If I am not good for myself, how am I supposed to be any good for anyone else.  As much as I suffered through the year, I now embrace it with great love and understanding.  It didn’t define me, but it did allow me to grow and to learn more about myself and others, some good, some not so good.  I am finally back to feeling like Cindy again and oh what a joyful feeling that is!  I sure did miss me! 

If true and lasting happiness is what you seek, seek first from within. Live, breathe and be your Inner Life. Quiet your mind, focus solely on the present moment and allow the power of your Inner Life guide you to where you want to be. – Cindy Ortiz

Live, Love & Breathe Life

Love & Light,

Cindy